Just Start. Again. (And Again. And Again.)
It’s the middle of April.
I’ve had “update blog” in my goals every month since the beginning of the year. And every month, I’ve procrastinated it. And I have 1000 excuses: “I need to rebrand”, “I don’t know what my message is”, '“I want to create a different angle”, etc. All of the above are (possibly) true, but I still haven’t done anything. This is probably because I get this overwhelming sense that “it’s too late”, “who starts anything in February/March/April/May?”, “if I wanted to, I would have by now.” And my blog is not the only thing that I’ve let slip to the side. It’s like I’ve been waiting for everything to line up perfectly.
But perfect conditions do not exist. There is no reason why right now isn’t the exact right time to start again or start something new. And the simple truth is that if I had started when I first thought about it (whatever “it” is), I would be much closer to achieving my goals.
Yes, I may have been dealt some frustrating cards this year, thus far. Yes, it’s embarrassing to admit that they’ve derailed me more than they should have. Yes, I reacted (and will probably always react) emotionally. And yes, I self-sabotaged because I didn’t know how else to deal with my disappointment.
But all I can think about is how it’s already the 4th month of the year and I’ve barely touched my goals list…
But the time that has gone is never going to come back. And it won’t make it any better in May or June or July, if I still don’t get going.
So, I’m going to start my 2019, tonight. On the 12th of April, at 11pm. I am going to start. I am the only thing on this planet that I have any control over. I am the only person who is ever going to be completely invested in my life.
So I’m going to start. Because it’s what I deserve. Because I am worthy of my goals. Because I am worthy of my dreams.
And so are you, in case you forgot.