The Average Girl's Guide to Bullet Journaling: Bullet Journaling Anxiety
I haven't been enjoying my bullet journal lately. In fact, it's been causing me a lot of anxiety. I've become so obsessed with whether or not my bujo is pretty enough and whether or not I'm being innovative enough with my spreads, that I no longer enjoy using my it. I realise that I've stopped thinking about my bujo for what it is - a customised means with which to organise my life.
Now when I think of my bujo I think of instagram insights, how to level it up, how to make it unique, reach, engagement, and so on and so forth. And if you asked me why I care about those things, I couldn't even tell you. But that's kind of what happens with social media - you start caring about stuff because it feels like you should. I've started focusing on what my bujo means for other people instead of what it means for me. So, I'm thinking of people who might be seeing my bujo first, and myself second.
So, of course my bujo is causing me anxiety. I simply can't sustain it when it's no longer about me. Yes, I'd love it if people were inspired to start a bujo of their own because they saw mine, but if I think of the bujo owners that inspire me the most, they have their own bujo style that fits in with their lifestyle. Their bujos are authentically their own.
As I write this, it strikes me as slightly hilarious that I take bullet journaling so seriously. It's not that deep, fam. When I started bullet journaling, I needed a creative outlet and I wanted to start making progress in different areas of my life. And that's what I need to get back to. I need to re-center on myself and the parts of my life that I want to keep organised, and then let go and not take the rest of it so seriously.
Ultimately, my point is, don't let the anxiety of getting your bullet journal to look perfect get in the way of letting your bullet journal do what its meant to. For you. Remember, it can be as simple or artistic as you want. It can have one consistent theme or a different theme on each page or no theme at all. Just do with it what you initially intended and allow it to progress as you do. Organise your life. Forget everything else. It is your bullet journal after all.