Song Inspiration: The Fear by Ben Howard
I've been worrying that my time is a little unclear/I’ve been worrying that I'm losing the ones I hold dear/I’ve been worrying that we all live our lives in the confines of fear
First things first, Ben Howard is a genius, go and listen to his music. Second things second, is this (the fear) not the current and eternal state in which humans exist?
We are afraid to be alone, so we cling to relationships that aren’t good for us or we use people to fill the loneliness. We are afraid of what people think about us so we slowly but surely become these awkward & agreeable blank surfaces that no one can take offence to. We are so afraid of failing that we give up before we even try. We are so afraid of looking unsuccessful that we attach success to things and the appearance of things that don’t even make us happy.
We live in a society which is built on fear. All the communication we receive seems to be “trust us/do this/go here, or else." I feel like I’m being dramatic but it feels an awful lot like we don’t know what we’re doing unless we’re trying to avoid some unseen catastrophe. It’s like we’re all waiting with baited breath for the end of days. Where’s that apocalypse we've been promised?
I’d like to change this narrative. I’d like to make sure that the decisions I’m making in my life, I’m making because they’re good for me & not because I’m afraid. I want my focus to be that this - whatever 'this' is - fulfils me and brings light to my life. I want to be honest and through ‘this’ create beautiful, balanced life for myself.
I will become what I deserve.
So I hope I'll always endeavour to leave my fear behind & endeavouring to move forward with light & candour (shameless plug?). And a heart fortified in courage as a result.